oh how He loves us...

And we are His portion and He is our prize, Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes, If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking. And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss, And my heart turns violently inside of my chest, I don’t have time to maintain these regrets, When I think about, the way…

He loves us.

song by David Crowder Band

"And when all else fades, my soul will dance with You, where the love lasts forever."~HU

the story of my life...when it rains, it pours. circumstances don't always turnout like you wished they would. friends, family, society isn't always good to you. plain and simple...crap happens. there are things that face you that you're not in control of. and you can either stare it back in the face or turn around and walk away. which one is the right choice? is either? is what you're facing really issues you need to be dealing with? where is the battle ground? is it a war you're called to fight in...?

my response to rain isn't always to dance in the puddles. sometimes i cry about the clouds and cold. sometimes i open the windows and listen to the water drops on the ground...

there is a river that flows from God above. there is a fountain that's filled with His great love. come to this water, there is a vast supply. there is a river that never shall run dry.

it doesn't matter the battle we face. He already conquered it. He fought the battle and rescued the world. He knows exactly what we face and why we face it. He is able and willing to carry us, to comfort us. our responsibility is to get out of the boat. get out of your comfortable boat! take off the life saver floaty device and be willing to drown. because its in drowning that you lose yourself and gain the life of Christ. "it is no longer i who lives, but Christ who lives in me..." (galatians 2:20).

i haven't been married yet...but, being the great observer that i am, my analysis is quite...good.

Why get married?

marriage is an unselfish act, an act and choice to commit your life and future to spending it with a person. finding God in that person and loving them when you cant. the Bible uses marriage as an example and a parable of the union of Christ and His bride: the church. the people of God. the love He has for her, the love she has for Him. she sets herself pure and clean and holy before Him. surrendered to His love. a committal of whole heart and life and love. a burning love of fire for Christ alone. a never fading passion for the One and only Jesus-Redeemer. the One who rescued and redeemed her.

when i think of being married, i want to think of all the good things that married love brings, i want to imagine a husband that will love me in spite of my flaws and human-ness. a man that will see past the other pretty faces and pick me and only me. a feeling of finally of never feeling lonely and left out. looking at other couples and admiring their love.

its put within us to be joined in love with a husband or wife...

you'll never be "ready" for marriage if your heart isn't first filled with the life of God. Only He excepts you for who you completely are. He sees you. He wants you when you're feeling lonely or left out. He is your rescue boat when the ships going down. He's your blanket when you have no covering. He's your shade, your sweet resting haven, your never ending love story, the sunset that sings you to sleep, the sunrise that breaks through your dark. He has no end, His love doesn't fade, He's always the same. And you are His unfinished masterpiece...

i married Jesus when i was sixteen years old. I've found that that marriage is sometimes rocky because I'm rocky. but He isn't. He's the same. and He's my example. how He walked and lived and loved is how i will choose to walk, live and love.

Lord, let it be done unto me according to Your will, give me a man after Your heart who will love me with the love you've filled Him with. bless the man You've written for me. keep him only for me and i for him. show me how to bless his life and glorify You...

my heart will trust...

I'll walk closer now on the higher way
Through the darkest night will You hold my hand
Jesus guide my way

O You mourn with me and You dance with me
For my heart of hearts is bound to you

Though I walk through valleys low I'll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul, my heart will trust in You

My heart will trust in You

O You counsel me and You comfort me
When I cannot see You light my path

Though I walk through valleys low I'll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul, my heart will trust in You

My heart will trust in You...My heart will trust in You...

You can have me~Sidewalk Prophets

If I saw You on the street
And You said come and follow me
But I had to give up everything
All I once held dear and all of my dreams
Would I love You enough to let go
Or would my love run dry
When You asked for my life

When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love, You can have me
You can have me

If You’re all You claim to be
Then I’m not losing anything
So I will crawl upon my knees
Just to know the joy of suffering
I will love You enough to let go
Lord, I give you my life


I want to be where You are
I’m running into Your arms
And I will never look back
So Jesus, here is my heart

Search me O God
Search me and find
Any way in me that does not reflect Your purity
Refine me O God
In the fire of Your gaze
That I might be holy in all of my ways
Take me deeper Lord
Draw me closer Lord…

Give me a heart after Your own heart
Give me a mind that is pure and pleasing to You
Fill me with love
With Your power and Your joy
That this world might see You in me

"...that you will prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you appear as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life..." Philipians 2:14-16

i have been asking God this week to give me the heart of a bondservant. someone who willingly chooses to stay in her Master's court and serve. i asked the Father to use me in the ministry and outreach. He has been bringing opportunities to share His gospel with people lately. which means i need to be in His Word and prayer...learning in order to teach...

"if i were still trying to please men, i would not be a bondservant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

Is redemption and salvation in vain if we continue to commit the very same acts we were forgiven for? The Word says that we are to crucify the flesh. "Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit."(galatians 5:24-25) Because we are now under grace, do we have the freedom to live without the law of God? I believe Jesus is looking to find His bride pure. A bride who has kept herself pure, saving herself only for her husband. I believe God is looking for holiness among this generation.

We live in a time of desperation among this generation. as the people of God, we need to be seeking God. Running after Him in passionate pursuit. God has put the call on peoples life, and we can either answer that call or rebel. Because, why are we here? What is life on earth? Its so easy to get caught up in the excitement of what the world exposes to us. we are sheep among wolves. but, we are to be wise as serpents and innocent as doves.(Matthew 10:16)

i cant say i'm without sin. i fail Him, but my heart knows Him and is deeply in love with His heart. He is my constant. He is divine life. He is all love i have ever known. Nothing I have He has not given to me. i truly am nothing without Him. my desire is for people to experience God and be changed by the renewing of the mind(do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.) Romans 12:2

my prayer and desire is for people to have a revelation of who Jesus is, to be empowered by His Spirit and be conformed to the image of Christ. We are a redeemed people. God is calling all men to repent and submit to the call of Christ. There is no greater freedom and peace than walking and knowing Christ. "...so that you may discover the things that are excellent, in order to be sincere and blameless until the day of Christ; having been filled with the fruit of righteousness which comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God." Philipians 9-10

Lord, lead me into the wilderness to hear Your voice and be renewed by Your Spirit...Lord, I ask that You capture people. Please send out Your light and Your truth to pierce peoples hearts. You are Sovereign and Your Kingdom come and Your will be done...